Saturday, September 6, 2008

A Litlte Progress

A week later and the depression, anxiety attacks and sleeplessness still linger. Jake took me to our family MD (who is very informed of my history and my desire to stay as natural as possible). The natural practitioner and the MD agreed it would be wise to put me back on a RX for depression and anxiety. I'm still waiting for it to kick in. I did sleep the entire night last night plus until 5pm today. He (the MD) also refilled my hyrocodone for pain. Jake has it hidden from me so I don't over do it. It's good stuff.

I'm pausing for a few days on some of the natural meds until I can get my emotional state in order. Three cancers has just kicked my ass. I'm not the strong, get up and go gal of the past. I'm tired and sad. There's no play book for this so I'm muddling through the best I can. I'm trying to ignite that fire in my belly to fight and get through this.

Keep up the positive thoughts they really help.

8 comments:

AnnMarie said...

i picked up the phone 100 times to call you this week.

I am so glad to hear the dr gave you some more meds for the depression and anxiety and that you are starting to take them. i believe at some point the meds are needed to supply our brain with the needed chemicals that depression robs you of.

you hang in there... the light at the end is there my friend, I know it just seems far away and dim but it's getting closer.

rach said...

Each little step will bring you closer to health and light. I am so glad you took the steps to help you through this rut. We are all thinking of you every day!!
Love to you all!!
Love,
rach, brad, liv and ethan

J said...

Good to see this update and that things are better. Email me when you can. Love ya.

Life is beautiful... Mostly said...

Sometimes an RX is what you need. Depression is a horrible thing that is hard to escape, and you have many reasons to be experiencing it. Ann-Marie is right, there is a light at the end of this tunnel. Hang in there! I am glad you took this step, hopefully it is a giant leap forward in the right direction.
Positive thoughts and prayers for you!
Laurie

Jamie said...

I, too, am glad to see this update.
Although I am on a much different page than you, I suffer from insomnia and prefer to take the natural route whenever possible. However, this week I heeded the advice of several loving and concerned naturalists in my life and took Melatonin two nights in a row. The first night I got 4 hours of sleep and the second night I got 5. The next night (last night) I didn't take anything and got 4.
Small victory for me, maybe it would help a little for you? Because the depression/anxiety/sleeplessness cycle is a vicious one.

Anonymous said...

There is so much love around you, for you, because of you. Let that love in, and it will help to ignite that fire you are looking for. You have had to be so strong. Let everyone around you take on that burden for a while...and just be. Meds are good!!!! Renie says try hot orange juice...it would surprise you how good it actually is!!! Love to you! Tammy, Luke, Isabel and Harrisonrzgwucwp

J said...

When someone can, please update. Love y'all.

Jess and Joe said...

We are thinking of you constantly. We love you!!!
Jess and JOe