Thursday, May 1, 2008

A Tough Week

Just over a week ago I had surgery to remove more cancer from my tongue. I went from pissed off, sad, to that question I know makes no sense to ask... Why? Because frankly if I knew why cancer kept creeping into my body I assure you I would stop doing it. Cold turkey.

Never before have I relied on medication to get me through a rough patch, but I called in the troops this time, Xanax and Zoloft are my best friends. It's 1:30pm and I haven't cried yet today.

Poor Jake. How in the world does he put up with me? The man is a saint.

I don't want to be all dramatic because there is a good chance surgery took care of my problem. I'll know in a couple of weeks. Until then, I'm thinking happy thoughts and I hope you'll think some for me too.

And if you are looking for a creative weight loss plan....tongue surgery should do it.

10 comments:

Myrtle's Mayhem said...

We are sending oodles and oodles of positive and happy thoughts your way.

As for Jake...he's the luckest guy out there (aside from Danny and Rob of course!)

xoxo-mere

Keith said...

We're all thinking of you, Hope, and wishing for the best possible outcome. Hang in there!

--Keith, Lisa & the kids

Lois Martin said...

You are the strongest person I know, and I'm sure you're going to get through this and win the big battle.

The Martin men are indeed saints -- I'm married to one too! And I, too, use the "happy pills" to get through my depression. I really think they just make me more even, not artificially elated. It was our sweet Rachel in Maine who convinced me to give them a try.

The Massachusetts Martins are all on your team. We love you.

Aunt Lois

Lane said...

You are so strong - you have been through so much. Hopefully this is the last time you will be faced with this. You can do it. We are thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way. Hug all your boys and let them take care of you.

Life is beautiful... Mostly said...

Hopefully, this will be the last time that C word makes an appearance in your life. It is a horrible and sneaky disease that needs to be wiped off the planet. Much love and positive thoughts to you and your family!

Laurie

AnnMarie said...

Glad to hear the drugs are working and of course more prayers are going your way.

In my book, nothing beats good friends, a supportive huband, sangria and excellent drugs!

Cooper wants to drool on you so we want to visit you and the boys soon!

xoxoxox

buhtafly said...

Sending my prayers and lots of hugs!

Jen said...

I thought about you all day today. Sending positive energy. Love you.

Stacy said...

I'm so sorry to hear about this, Hope! Wow. I know the emotions must be all over the map.

I'm praying for you right this moment...

Christina said...

Hope, your blog is funny and I can relate to some of your stories. I am praying for you and I also said a prayer for your family last night. I am way up here in BC and my thoughts are with you. Even though we don't know each other, we have something in common. That feeling you get when you hug your child, and nothing else matters. And the ability children have to make us feel better, when we need it most, and they don't even know it. It's a wonderful life.